There is a job that I came across about three months ago that I would say it is my dream job. Obviously I applied for it, wrote my best cover letter and presented my CV as best as I can. I partly qualified for it but anyways you know the saying “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take”.
The recruitment process has taken about two months or so where I had to do assessments and all other things they make you do to see if you meet their criterias. This past week I got feedback with that first sentence nobody wants to see, “We are sorry to inform you….. blah blah blah”. Yes, I didn’t get the job. I didn’t get my dream job. I had prayed about it, all year long. I prayed for the opportunity and also to get the job. God said NO to my prayer.
Here is the amazing thing though, which has also surprised me. I am at peace. I am not angry. I am not disappointed. The reason is because God is the one who said no to me. Not anyone but God. The thing is God has been so strategic in my life that He has prepared me for this time. Honestly if it was six months or a year ago, I would have been so bitter.
Yes. No. Wait
One of the things I keep is a prayer list of the things and people I am praying for. Out of those requests I have learnt and seen God answer in three ways which most people would agree with: Yes, No and Wait. There are different dynamics to those answers, but I want to share on which I’ve learnt and grown in; that is the wait. I have learned that when God tells you to wait, signs and messages from within and outside you will come along at just the right time so that you’ll never lose hope.
Why am I talking about waiting when earlier on I had said God said no to me ? It’s because I believe God has made me wait for what He wants for me, for His glory and my ultimate benefit. But it is not just waiting, but waiting in training. That is God making me wait whilst training or preparing me for what He wants to give me and place me. I have seen a series of events God has put in in my life that I believe were meant to train me. It has been from taking me away from things I hold dear to, putting me in positions where I have to show patience with not only circumstances and people, but also with myself. Making me into something brand new and a place where others find love and grace for their lives. Healing emotional wounds and disappointments that where undealt with. All of this before moving me forward. All this furnace of affliction didn’t destroy me, but rather refined me, forging me into weaponry that makes hell tremble.
At the end of the day I would still want to do my dream job 😁. I believe God has taken care of that honestly. I have learnt not to confuse God’s will with my desires. He promised to be faithful to his Word, not to my expectations.
I am learning that a heart at rest, through the test, will find God’s very best. That is His love. God’s peace is found as we let go of our need to be in control, have all the answers and know all the outcomes. It’s found when we learn to abide in the Father. Resting in who He says we are, found only in His word.
God seeks expectant worshipers (John 4:23), men and women who pursue him with all their heart, soul, mind, and strength — because they want Him, not just his help, forgiveness, or gifts.
“Never commit your happiness to the future. Happy work is best done by the man who takes his long-term plans somewhat lightly and works from moment to moment ‘as to the Lord.'” C. S. Lewis