Too many people want . . .
The outcome but not the obedience,
The pleasure but not the pain,
The answers but not the agony,
The crown but not the cross.
It doesn’t work that way..
More often than not I make inferences about my future based on the circumstances I am in. I think it’s just part of who I am that I want to be clear about things, I want to make sense of everything. At the same time God is always leading me to a place of uncertainty. The more I try to be clear and certain about things, the more uncertain and insecure I feel.
I am growing into a place where the more I embrace being uncertain and not knowing, the more comfortable I feel in knowing what I don’t know. This is not because I now don’t care about things but because God is growing me into a place of trust and knowing it’s not certainty that brings peace and comfort but His presence.
He did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was as good as dead (since he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness of Sarah’s womb. No unbelief made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised.
Romans 4:19-21 ESV
What I need and all of us is that we need to be like Abraham who didn’t look at his old body but looked to God. Abraham was convinced that if God promised something, He would pull through regardless of circumstance. I need to start looking at God more, not because I need clarity but because I need His presence. That’s pure certainty.
God please forgive my disbelief. Lord when I look at my circumstances and not You, that’s when I get it wrong. Lord please help me to shift my focus to You. Nothing is impossible for You. Please strengthen my faith to have a higher view of You. To trust that You will pull through each time, not for my benefit but that Your name be hallowed, in my life and in all of the heavens and earth. Thank You that you are so sovereign that nothing has happened to me that You have not planned for, for your glory and yet amazingly for my benefit. In Jesus name. Amen.